Dear Me, 

If you are reading this, congratulations. You somehow survived another 12 months. I honestly don’t know what has changed yet, but I hope when you read this, you can look back at this version of yourself and say, “Wow, I really came a long way.” 

Right now, I am in a stage of my life where I am trying to figure out exactly who I want to become. I have a lot of things I want to achieve, and sometimes I feel like I should already know everything. The funny part is that I definitely do not. There are days when I feel like I am making serious progress, and there are other days when I stare at my laptop for ten minutes wondering why my code is not working, only to discover that I forgot one tiny thing. At this point, I think programming is teaching me patience whether I like it or not. 

One of the things I am currently working on is improving my skills in technology and programming. I am learning at Nepsix College, and I want to take what I learn there seriously. I am still building my foundation, especially in JavaScript and web development, and there is a lot that I don’t understand yet. Sometimes I get excited because I finally understand something, and then I learn another concept and realize there is an entire new level I haven’t even reached. But I am learning to enjoy the process instead of expecting myself to become an expert overnight. 

Twelve months from now, I hope I am much more confident in my abilities. I want to be able to sit down with a project idea and actually know how to build it instead of immediately thinking, “Maybe I should ask somebody.” I want to understand what I am writing, not just copy code that happens to work. I want to think like an engineer, solve problems, make mistakes, fix them, and keep going. 

I also hope I have become more disciplined. One thing I am learning about myself is that starting something is usually not my biggest problem. Staying consistent when things become boring or difficult is the real battle. It is easy to be motivated when everything is exciting. The real test is continuing when the excitement disappears. Twelve months from now, I want to be someone who finishes what he starts. 

I also have academic and personal goals that I want to accomplish. I want to do well in university and prepare myself for the next stage of my education and career. I want to become more independent, responsible, and capable of handling challenges without giving up whenever things get uncomfortable. I know life will not suddenly become easy, so I am not asking for an easy life. I am asking to become better at handling whatever comes. 

There are also things I refuse to compromise on. I don’t want success to make me forget who I am or the people who helped me get there. I don’t want to become so focused on achievements that I stop appreciating the small things. I want to remain humble, keep learning, and stay around people who genuinely want to see me grow. I also refuse to let failure convince me that I am incapable. I know I will fail at some things. That is part of learning. 

I hope you have also learned to enjoy the journey more. Right now, I sometimes think too much about where I am supposed to be instead of noticing where I actually am. I want you to remember that the person writing this letter did not have everything figured out. He was still learning, still making mistakes, still getting distracted, and still trying to become more disciplined. 

So, Me, twelve months from now, I hope you are proud. Not necessarily because everything went perfectly, but because you kept moving. I hope you learned things that once seemed impossible. I hope you built things you once only imagined. I hope you made mistakes that taught you something. I hope you become stronger mentally, better academically, and more skilled than you are today. 

And if things did not go according to plan, that’s okay too. Plans change. Life changes. You change. Just don’t use that as an excuse to stop trying. 

Keep learning. Keep improving. Keep your sense of humour because, honestly, you are going to need it. 

Most importantly, don’t forget where you started. 

See you in 12 months. 

Hopefully with better code, better discipline, and considerably fewer “why is this not working?” moments. 

From, 

Me!